I know, it's been SO long since I have posted! We are just waiting still so honestly there has been nothing to post! I have been planning on baby rooms- one if a girl and one if a boy..and somewhat thinking of names..but we want to wait until we have our referral until we really go into really thinking about all of the details. Reading books, reading about attachment with our little one to teach he/she who mommy and daddy are, etc. I am trying to stay away from negative blogs and books..as much as I want to be prepared for what "could" go wrong...to me, just like with pregnancy...all the things I really worried about never really happened and some of the things I didn't worry about did. So that's enough proof to me to just not allow my mind to go down that road.
We had Ty who was a preemie in the nicu at birth for a couple of weeks and then hospitalized in critical care with a 106 fever at 12 months with a respiratory infection for a week and then Gray, who was sent to the nicu bc his cord was wrapped so tightly he was blue and wouldn't cry, and then at 4 weeks suffered two skull fractures..and then at 3 months got RSV and was ill for over 8 weeks....and THEN Eli was extremely sick in critical care at Vandy at 2 weeks old with RSV. So, honestly, to say the newborn phase makes me nervous is an understatement. All I can think about with a teeny one is sickness and panic! Although the road ahead is unknown and filled with uncertainty, I have learned from my three boys to just not even plan on a "normal". And looking back on all of those times and panic and tears..I am oddly thankful to have learned so much in every situation.
I have my days when I am fine with the wait, and others I am just sick of it already! I get angry that there is so much red tape that lies in between a needy child and a family that wants to care for them. It makes me frustrated that I can't make it happen quickly. But, through this, there is also the lesson that we are in no way in control of this and never have I leaned more heavily on the words "hope" and "faith".
Thank you so much again for your support, your prayers, your words of encouragement, your donations, tshirt orders...anything and everything you have done to help this process of getting our baby home! Our coordinator said April-May so thinking this next month may be it!
